Sunday 24 August 2014

“I love you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you.” She opened her mouth to speak something, but he continued “I love you with all your craziness… with just everything. You are the most beautiful soul that I have ever come across and would love to be with you forever… I know I am not the perfect person you have dreamt about, but I promise, to try harder and harder until I get there. I want to be there with you and face our life as it comes – TOGETHER. So… Tamanna, (deep breath) Will you marry me?”
He was down on one knee with a rose in his hand, and now, desperately waiting for an answer. He glared at her face, her twinkling eyes were moist. She had a smile on her face, the very smile he loved. All the people present in the hall were as eager as he to hear a “YES” from her. The whole hall was silent, or maybe he didn’t want to hear anyone else apart from her. Finally, she started saying something, but her expressions had changed. “Is this a joke?” she said. She looked red, maybe it is because she is blushing, or really angry; it was difficult to gauge, rather he wanted to believe that she was blushing. All friends and family were around and also many unknown people. He was worried now. He – the Rudra Singhania – never gave it a thought that she might actually say a no to ‘his’ proposal. He was now afraid, and he himself didn’t understand what exactly he was feeling; maybe he had never faced a rejection, that too from a girl – NEVER. With his Greek God looks, tall and muscular build with fair complexion and grey eyes and not to forget about his extremely rich family background; he knew he was a charm; the chances of getting rejected by a girl were too slim. But of course, this was the first time that he had gone down on his knees and talked marriage.
He loved her a lot. He cared about her. He was 27 and she was 25. The whole restaurant they were in was curious to know about her answer and Rudra was freaked out. He, or rather they both, had never talked about marriage. It had been 2 and a half years since they had been dating each other, and was still as crazy about her as much as he had been since the first time he saw her. He thought it was something in her eyes, some kind of magic.
It was 31st May 2013; he remembered the date, and even the time 20:42 hrs. It was a party. Being from a rich family, it was very habitual of him to attend so many parties with skimpy clothed date plus drinks; this, resulting into great sex. He was more of a ‘one-night-stand’ guy. He loved drinking, smoked sometimes – just to show off. Due to his looks and personality and the wealthy family background that he had, it was easy for him to get dates which would result into sex by end of their drinking session.
That day it was different. He was least interested in the party. Even though he had a really hot date, he didn’t really want to be there in the party. This party was different. He was in Goa and accidently happened to bump into a long lost school friend who later invited him to the party. All other parties that he had been to were loud. In those parties people hardly knew each other, they were just present there because some rich brat had too much money to smoke up and drink alcohol. With all the media present at those parties, apart from the pretentious smiles and gestures towards each other, no one really cared about who’s who and what’s happening in the party. They were just present to dance to the loud music played by few of the best DJ’s in town, loads of photographs for media. This party was in Goa, arranged by his friend ‘just-like-that’. Rich people don’t really need a reason to celebrate. They just need money to blow and drinks to get high on and the media to show off, obviously.
Surprisingly, there was no media at this party, people actually knew each other and were genuinely interested in knowing about each other. He liked it. All the smiles he saw were warm and comforting, not the fake ones for the camera. The eyes here had some truth inside them and they weren’t just trying to please others or seduce them for publicity. Rudra Singhania had seen both the sides of people; those media starved people who cared less and the true ones. Probably, this was the reason he could judge whether some was lying or telling the truth.

Rudra was very sure that he was here at Goa for some fun, he didn’t want any media to capture him drinking and publicise him as some wasted youth. He was sure how he was going to spend his night. He went straight to the bar and he saw her. She was probably the most clothed person in the party and was continuously drinking and laughing. “Drunk” she must be he figured out, but the cheerful face was still laughing hard and the eyes seemed to have been crying or maybe some sleepless nights. He was all ready to drink, dance and get laid with some random girl and never call back. And here she was, in front of him… already drunk (saves his time… he thought). Now, he just has to talk to her. A drunken girl is very easy to get into bed with. He went towards the bar. Her eyes looked very innocent to him. “Hey beautiful, do you mind if I join for drinks?”

To be continued...
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Thursday 7 November 2013

Poem


Just take a paper,
Then take a pen,
Just write the story,
With your desired end...

Don't ask me how to write,
It's a poem silly,
Let your mind take it's flight...

Think about your dreamland,
Make your own world,
After all, its your story,
Give it some twists and turns...

Think about the things,
You always wanted to tell,
oh love, its easy,
Just put your scented smell...

Make yourself clear,
Tell me what you mean,
I know its not that easy,
But I am really keen...

The poem is nothing but
 expressing how you feel,
It'd be lovely to hear it out,
I'll be all head over heels...

Hope you write it my dear,
This is what I got to say,
Show your feelings so pure,
And compel me with you to stay...

He Reminds Me of You


Oh yes, he reminds me of you,
I do love him, but I hate him too...

The eyes he has, are like you,
The way you used to speak... he mocks that too,
Oh yes, he reminds me of you...

He tells me the things, which you once said,
To hear those words, for which my heart has bled,
He does tell me the other things too,
Oh yes, he reminds me of you...

He hugs me tight when he thinks I am scared,
But he doesn't know, its you who has numbed my head,
He adores me, and says that too,
Oh yes, he reminds me of you...

Its difficult to break his heart though,
Pretending not to follow... when I exactly know,
He loves me he says... just like you,
Oh yes! he reminds me of you... 
Knight in the Shining Armor

Never did I dream of a Prince Charming,
Even now, nor do I do,
I dreamt about a knight in a shining armor,
And the knight is just like you...

He isn't too vocal of his feelings,
But I know it's me who he likes,
He is the shy boy who sits in the corner,
Just smiles and is quiet...

His idea of love is to steal glances at me,
When he thinks that i don't know,
The thing that he isn't aware of is that,
I blush when he walks past by, in motion so slow...

Even he tries hard not to reveal his feelings,
But baby, I have known them since long,
It's in your voice, when you speak,
It sounds like a merry song...

So honey, when are you gonna give up this pretence,
When would you just confess?
'Cause I have been waiting for forever for that moment,
Like a damsel in distress...
HOPE FROM DESPAIR

"It’s been a while that it has been thundering,
Its been a while for this storm,
its been a while that I am trembling,
Its been a while that I haven't felt warm...

It was a terrible night,
I was out with him,
Even without the stars, it seemed so bright,
But suddenly it turned out to be a nightmare, than a dream...

It started off like just another romantic date,
We were holding hands,
I didn't had an idea that I had such bad fate,
The Satan had entered my fairyland...

I never thought that it was going to be like this,
It didn't really seem so bad,
And then he showed me the true face of his,
The devil was wearing the mask of a good lad...

The proposal had been done,
I was as happy as i could be,
And then his dark motives shone,
As the devil forced himself upon me...

I was in pain,
Seeing me like that he had a sadistic smile,
All my efforts to throw him away were in vain,
He seemed to be some merciless canine...

I was helpless,
He was stronger than me,
The man I loved turned out to be ruthless,
So I just waited for him to finish me...

He just left me there, on the ground,
I was too weak to stand,
My spun round and round,
But still there was no helping hand...

I wanted to tell this to someone,
But suddenly all words fell short,
I was left all alone,
I felt I wasn't worth anything at all...

I thought it was me that I should blame,
After all I blindly trusted him,
Suddenly all reasons to smile seemed to be lame,
everything seemed to be so grim...

Then came an Angel,
She took me out of it,
She made me feel special,
She pulled me out of that dark pit...

Now I do think positively,
But the feeling of love is far away,
Life does seem to be lonely,
But I hope to find out a way!!
Better Resurrection

Don’t worry about me honey,
Worry about yourself now,
‘cause you will be dying a cold death,
don’t know where and how…

For I loved you with all my heart,
You were the one who tore my soul apart,
All I wished was your happiness,
Now I see how you landed me in a mess…

God makes you learn the lesson of “Tit for Tat”,
I have learnt mine,
Soon it will be your turn honey,
As I continue to rise and shine…

My emotions were left dead,
As you royally slaughtered them,
I stayed there, numbed,
As “love” now sounded shameful and lame…

I won’t be crying now,
I promise I won’t shed a tear,
‘cause now I know you aren't worth it,
And I won’t hurt my heart so dear…


Something Death Can Not Do


Death is an easy way out honey,
it takes guts to endure the pain,
it is too simple to run away,
than make efforts and see them all go in vain...

Death is an easy way out honey,
Because it just ends it all,
It is rather difficult to stay together,
Than just to let it fall apart...

Death is an easy way out honey,
As it's the simplest escape,
It is the other part which is difficult,
To live, and watch someone else slaughter your soul like some babe...

Death is an easy way out honey,
But i don't like it easy after all,
To face life is more difficult,
But you have to stand tall.